Monday, December 18, 2017 03:20

Cast Blog: ~Kevin~

I tried to write something long and heart-felt, but it proved itself to be too daunting a task. The long and short of it is that I’ve gone through many phases with the JCCP, from crew member, to lazy-leader of crew, to being a member of the Board of Directors at the Hollywood Theater. I often wonder why my actions have led me to this current point in time, and why I keep going doing something that brings me so much stress and has literally brought my life to a screeching halt several times in the past 4 years. I think of the bad things a lot; the late nights, the yelling, the stress, the chaos, the bitterness, countless hours of thankless work, cast issues, personal issues, and friends lost. These things really cause me to question my involvement. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I should just leave it all behind.

Then I think about the good things; the laughter, the inside jokes, the once in a lifetime experiences and opportunities, the creativity, sharing ideas and making those ideas come to life, the great people I’ve met, the awesome friends I’ve gained, the things I’ve learned about people, the people who for some reason don’t mind keeping me around, and the people I can’t live without. There is a lot wrong with us; almost like you set our “family tree” on fire, but no family is without their issues. I sit at my desk alone in the damp dirty basement of the Hollywood Theater, and I ponder why I’m here. I then look at the picture I keep on my desk; the picture of my family. Not my mother, father, brother and sister, but a group of weirdos half naked in fishnets and underwear. Each face tells a different story, and they’re each a story that I want to be a part of; stories that I am so happy to be included in, and stories that I cannot picture my life without having read.

Grass tastes bad.
Chariots chariots.


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